Like many people in the world, I am a victim of numerous failed diet attempts. I don't recall being "small". I was a dancer, for 14 years. In a well known Ballet company, very petite, and never had to try. Somewhere around age 14 I realized I was getting big, and fast. Turns out, on top of my poor diet (Thanks mom), I was also on steroids for a medical condition. Not sure why no one thought the 14 year old gaining 10 lbs a month wasn't a reason to be concerned, but I digress.
There's always those reasons to try and lose weight. Rarely, are they about me. Usually, they are about a boy. Me wanting to impress someone. *shrug*. I'm not going to sit here and pretend like its for the wrong reason. My personal opinion, if it makes you happy and encourages you to DO it... it's the right reason.
So now, not only do I want to do this for a boy... I want to do it for me.
I have 6 very important things coming up in my life.
November 1 - Hawaii or Cali with my mom
November 11 - Friends wedding
November 13 - Wrestling show In NYC
December 4 - Taking Kira to Disney for the 1st time.
March - GOING TO PARIS!
April - King of Trios Wrestling show in Philly
Gotta make 2 things clear real fast. Names of boys in my life (such as Kira, yes he's a dude) will be changed. Also, I work in the professional wrestling industry so you will hear A LOT about wrestling related things. Deal :)
So anyway, these are things in my life that I feel I would enjoy more if I was thinner. I like me as me... but I don't like how my size and weight hinders things I do and how much I could potentially enjoy them.
There it is! The first entry. I'm gonna try and do this as much as I can. Journal, vent, talk, journal my food etc. *shrug*. I will also add that I am going to have to eat whatever I have in my house for awhile and just carefully count calories. i don't have much money to just go buy healthy stuff. So if I find stuff on sale like poptarts, and cereal... I'm gonna buy them. So don't give me shit about how i'm not eating "healthy". I eat on the cheap. I just gotta watch my calories, portions, and sugar consumption. Baby steps :)
lets see how this goes!
